Saturday, August 8, 2009

There are no accidents




(Above Kate at one year. Below the first picture we ever saw of Kate when she was 2 mths)


I intended to finish this blog with the last post. However, today I was rifling through some papers and I found something that I wrote on January 30, 2005. This was a full year and a half before we started the adoption process. Sam was over 3 years old and Luke was 15 months. Dan thought we were done having children, but I was really hoping for one more. Specifically, I really wanted to adopt a daughter from Asia. I was thinking China at the time, but that was before I knew about Taiwan. I find it interesting that I found this letter on the one year anniversary of THE VERY DAY we accepted our referral of Kate. But, perhaps there are no accidents. Here is what I wrote over four years ago:


To my daughter should we ever meet,


In this lifetime I have been blessed beyond measure: blessed to be born in a prosperous country with parents who could well provide for me;blessed to grow up in a world of much beauty with an abundance of friendship and love;blessed with time to relax and learn and wonder; blessed with a loving husband and two glorious sons who are my very heart. With all these blessings I have no right to wish for anything more than what I have in this moment. And yet...there is a longing in my heart. You see, I feel a little lost, a little alone without a daughter as you may feel without a mother. I know that I can never be the mother from whose body you sprang and it pains me to think you may never hear her name nor see the shape of her face. But how honored I would be if you would let me be the mother in whose heart you grow to be a strong, healthy, joyous woman. I honor your mother for the love, courage and strength she mustered to bring you forth for I'm sure her choices were limited and her prospects bleak but she knew you needed to come for you are blessed child of this earth and in that way we are truly and forever bound as family. I promise you this, if you cry out to me when you are born, I will come to you. I will gather you up in my arms and never let you go. Sometimes I think I feel you already. Always I am waiting to hear your voice. Much love, your mother.






8 comments:

Tami and Bobby Sisemore Family said...

Wow. commenting through tears!

Blessings,
Tami
PRAYING JEREMIAH HOME QUICKLY
www.tillGodbringsthemhome.blogspot.com

couey2007 said...

So glad to see you post/blog!! She is so cute. You know I need more photos! WOW, finding that letter is amazing.

Your referral friend.

Michelle C, AL

Journey to our baby said...

Kate was meant for you, and you for Kate. How precious.

Kate is a sweetie and a cutie!

Eva said...

Sarah,

It's such a beautiful and heart-felt letter. I am so glad that I get to know you (online) on this journey!

Eva

Farley and Mark said...

Sarah that is truly a beautiful message... one that I can in many ways relate to. I wish the best for your family!

Casey said...

Hi Dear Friend.
What a beautiful, heartfelt letter. You are such a wonderful, amazing mother. Kate is beautiful!! I hope we get to see more pictures. :-)

Casey

dan and rachel said...

wow, that is so beautiful, sarah! what an absolute treasure!

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